On Men and Credit Cards

I was texting my friend while waiting for the train home when I realized that men and credit cards are so much alike.
 You see, they find you, they call you everyday sometimes many times a day so that you will agree to tie yourself up with any one of them.

Then you choose which one you will get, then you are together.

You know its limits, still new so don't dive in that hard. It cannot give you too much, but is promising. You charge bit by bit, testing the waters on how well you will get attached.

When you start to find confidence, you become more adventurous. You spend more with it, you enjoy more.

Sooner or later, its limit increases, the way your relationship grows. Since you have been confident enough in reaping your rewards, you don't see any burden because you know you still have so much to give. Although you are concerned that some time payment may become a problem, you still rely on it, trusting yourself that everything is under control.

The time comes when you will start to get charged for your anniversary. You will realize that even if you have been faithful, you still have to pay. You can negotiate, talk about your situation, and your annual fee can be waived on the basis of loyalty and going concern. Just like the promises on big arguments, you both let it pass.

Some more time come when its limit has gone so high and when you think about how much you have gotten, you just cannot pay for everything. Your balance roll, just like your disagreements. You fix only what is due until there has been too much that was compounded and you cannot pay anymore.

It has maxed out. There is nothing more you can get, and you cannot start with a clean slate because you cannot clean everything up with what you have!

It charges you back, punishes you after you have learned to rely on it to make you happy. The things that you once used to spend with it, are all put in a halt. Even if you try telling it you will do better, you can never bring it back. You just have to tear it apart and throw it away.

And so you have parted, but it doesn't keep you away from misery. It bills you, time after time, you still have to pay and find ways to cope. You still work for it to finish even if you want to start moving on. Everytime it makes itself remembered, and you are left with no choice but to face it, to continuously make an effort in the hopes that one day you will be relieved from its complications.

You do not know when the time will come when you will not be reminded of it anymore. That you will never have to pay, and the haunting will stop.

There is nothing you can do but to pay in all ways you can. You might find putting leverage by using another to cover for it. And the vicious cycle goes on, this time with a new man err debt?!

That is a reality that you have to live by, you have to pay until you are completely FREE.

P.S.
Then again, there are people who can have it and never pay for it (the lucky ones).

P.S.S.
Can you just imagine someone who has more that one?!?!?!

Thought from KKK

It's holy week and its a pinoy movie marathon in ABS CBN. The other day I almost had a heart attack getting too much *kilig* from One More Chance's Popoy and Basha (John Lloyd and Bea).

Today, I just turned the TV and it was Judy Ann and Ryan's Kasal, Kasali, Kasalo. Judy Ann was just ranting that she has too many family problems then Ryan went saying, "Kasalanan ko bang maraming problema pamilya mo?"

Then I remembered someone, he used to tell me he couldn't pursue this girl because she had a very carefree lifestyle while he had all the problems in the world. He chose to settle with someone who had an equally complicated life. Now I realize, if I were him, what would I choose?

I'd probably go with someone who has less, if not no complications at all. In a stressful life, I would rather be with someone who doesn't have problems who would have time energy to help me on my own problem-solving.

But then again, he was already too insecure to figure out that there is an easy way like that. Having too much pride, the choice of being with the complicated one was the result. But this is just me. Maybe, they work better having too many problems and it would be a bore without having one. Fate and destiny.

I am just glad I am not complicated. I am grateful that I do not have to make a similar choice.