Today's Realizations

So I've been spending a lot of time talking about lots of stuff with my seatmate in the office. He made realize these things:

My exes are not pogi.
Have my eyes shrank? My taste differed? People aged? Basta, he commented Jejemon pa in one. I really learned that you should not oppose your mom when she say's someone isn't good for you when you are young. Kahit gaano pa yan kagwapo noon, mag-iiba din itsura nyan. So kids, fall in love when you are old enough and your features already matured. I will definitely teach my kids this lesson!

Head over heart over eyes.
Okay, so when it comes to love, my eyes come last with my head first. Loving the one I am with, and standing firmly on my decisions. What ever happens afterwards, I have to face and make the most out of every experience. I think so I still know what to do if I fall.

I am not happy (or at least I need a reason to).
I do not want to be a bad wife, but I need more time spent with my husband. It's really a factor pala in relationships, so you don't end up wasting time doing something else. But there's career that poses a threat for time. It needs balance.

It took someone 5 years my junior to make me realize these things. Not that I do not know, but this was intended to be kept inside the baul.

As they say in accounting: Going concern - the assumption that we will continue on long enough to carry our objectives and commitments.

I want to be...

...young and carefree
to have my weekly allowance back,
have no responsibilities but to pass college,
go out every night and not care about work the next day,
just to be young and not mind competition,
mind only myself and what makes me happy.

...confident
step out the door,
look up on the sky,
paste a smile on my face,
and walk with my head held up high.

...active
never run out of fun things to do,
a variety of friends to go out with,
be in interesting places,
get out of this bed!

I am fuckin' bored and this boredom makes me so insecure, and yes, FAT.