Married but single but married

A lot of people are asking me how married life is.

It's been over a year since J and I got married and really, my answer has always been the same. 

Okay lang. Parang single pa din.

And its true. I couldn't really tell what's different. Is it just because we do not have kids yet? Or is it because we have a different level of attachment to each other?

Sometimes it scares me that we do not share the same fondness or the same level of cheesiness between most newly married people. Is it because we have spent more than 7 years in the dating stage before we settled down?

Are we just too career centered to focus on married life?

At times on a Friday or Saturday night, my mom would call me and ask me where I am. On a couple of situations I was out with my friends and J has his own thing. She would tell me that J and I should be going out as one and not as separate individuals. Is that an old fashioned thought? Well, I tell myself that I should respect our individuality and give space for each of our enjoyment. But sometimes, I feel like I should take a leap and make us stay together longer during the day.

I want to feel some form of cheesiness between us. We have been used to going around separately and I feel its not becoming healthy. Now I feel like crying for not being like other couples. It's not that this is a bad thing at all. I am just scared that I am missing something along this process.

I do not want to be a bad wife.